Flight no. 9W 121

When in Dec 07, I had applied for my new passport, I had never thought that I was going to invite a challenge which will become one of my goal for the year 2008.
I just applied for the sake of having it as everyone had one; and forgot about it, considering that these government things will take their own sweet passage of time to get done, & of course I was in NO hurry, though I wanted to see the world & cross the border !!!

Then in the New Year I had some more important things to do, of course marriage was certainly is not there at all. It was more about getting the right kind of work at office, buying a new house which had been a target for my family since I started working. So I kept spending my many weekend in search of hunting for house which is reasonably big for me and my family!! Why for me is because of one of the reason “again Marriage!!! Well never mind I was prepared for even worse then this. Finally we found a dream home so called sweet home. After putting together all the resources from where we can have sufficient money to buy, this house. I took loan, sold the old house where I spend my 27 years; and it was indeed a very painful experience in the sense that I and my family even loved the small walls of this small house, but if one has to grow and move forward then these material things should not be considered of that importance. Finally we shifted to new house got every ritual and pooja, done at new house, had invited all near and dears to be part of it. Anyways!!! Everyone came congratulated us and wished us a happy stay in the new house & and not to mention my closest friend did come after calling them many times.

Apart from my social life everything was going smooth at my work too, though the task which I was handling was not going in any direction but I was still given recognition for what minimum, I had done and started for that non-funded but a cost saving project, where no body wants to be involved just for the sake of helping. Full marks to my on-shore counter part Heidi who helped me to the extent she could. I was being promoted to Senior Analyst for my efforts to keep the things moving. And I guess this was the best time of career when I got a call from one of the consultants for an opening in XL Capital for Assistant Manager. So somehow I managed to resign from AMPF and started working for my company


So after letting that time passed by I finally started coming to new place and found that I am supposed to travel to UK as per business requirement. I guess was much exited about this; but it was all suddenly calmed down due to the fact that I did not have the valid passport. I called up my ex-manager and who is more like a friend and discussed things the only thing she could do for me was to get my forms submitted for police verification. I deposited the documents on the same day when I had joined the office i.e. 21.04.08 but now it was the start for the agony which I had never anticipated. I followed up with the nearest police station and bribed one corrupted and person having no morals who proved himself the son of slut & a son of bitch too who had no regards to anyone’s emotions at a;; and terrible situation I kept chasing that fucker on phone to know that status and he kept telling me no file has come. Then finally one fine day I went to the passport office and met a useless pissed officer who was supposed to handle a mass of a public where every one had there story to tell. After been chasing then for number of times I catch the delivery boy who sends the documents to police headquarter.

I finally decided to go to the police headquarter to check the status as expected there was no system no one to hear. Some fuckers were sitting there who are not doing anything but irritating those who have already suffered so much to get the passport. But yes I sometimes appreciate my efforts that I kept my cool and took the right decisions to put sometimes system on their toe, to find out as to what is happening with my application status. I finally decided to write an application-cum complaint to inquire about my documents which were send to police headquarter but never been taken off. I prepared my application and went straight on the 2nd floor of Asaf Ali Police station and waited for a dak babu to accept my application but as it is quite understood as to how things move on in Government offices so I was prepare for anything undesired. I really sometime give pause assess the hard time and think about some great and famous saying that GOD HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES, and I think suddenly something was going on for me. Mr. RK Sharma who looks to be a very genuine person offered me a seat as he was observing me from his cabin which was adjacent to that dak babu’s cabin. I asked me to detail him about my case and took my file number and went downstairs to check the record. He came back and he certainly came back with an answer, he told me that my file came from the Passport office but it had wrong file number mentioned on it so it was return to passport office for correction. He advised me call him back on his phone number as he had given instructions to the delivery boy to check the status of my file. After three days his call came and he confirmed me that my file has been moved to the special branch for inquiry. I called up this fucker (the police officer whom I had bribed) and briefed him about the case and he was least bothered about as to what was going on in my case and he instead started asking me how did I have an entry there to inquire the status. Finally on 09.06.08 the police man came and left his phone number to the neighbors saying that he was there for the police inquiry but as he did not find anyone so asked to call him back on his number. I called him up and asked to come to my place; he came and completed the inquiry, but also put a comment about the house shift so that there is no space left for my relief. I chased him after few days and did not felt nice the way he talked to me. So I just decided to wait and watch. In between I spoke to Chacha about anyone who can help me out in getting the information about my police inquiry. And through his friend who works as a Dalal confirmed me that my police inquiry report had arrived. And he asked me to give some document for making the passport on urgent basis. At the same time I could see that the status for the passport was also changed and it was ready for delivery on 30th June. I started waiting for the same and even visited the nearest post office to see if my passport is reached to the post office for delivery. But I think all the department which are in public services speaks the same language even the post men do. I think is quite self explanatory as to in what tone I must have received the answer. I came back and checked the status of the passport again. I again I was shocked to see that as my addressed was changed so they wanted me to clarify it with the submission of documents of my new address proof. Now I again thought of something which I always remember whenever I find myself helpless. So the lines are “I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME STRENGHT BUT HE GAVE ME DIFFICULTY TO MAKE ME STROGE.” I don’t know who has said these lines but I always find this line very motivating and inspirational.

So after gathering all the energy I again went to me Passport Office to clarify my address change. This time one of my colleague and the friend of my Chacha asked me to go and meet the person who sits in room number five. I spent almost 3 hours standing in a queue on a Tuesday. Tuesday is the day when I keep fast don’t know why but I do. So the point is that became harder for me to be there and see things. But that really paid off in the sense that I was able to clarify my address changed and received the promise delivery date as 24.07.08

Finally 24th came and I was all set to get my passport. Surprisingly my phone started ringing and I was surprised to know that it was form Passport office and this person who was calling from the office wanted me to submit the papers again. I was all angry but though it would just get over so I told him that I was coming. I reached there and stand in the queue hoping that the docs to be submitted on the delivery counter but the moment my number came I found that my passport was not there and the delivery staff asked me to go to the pasting department. There I wend to the pasting department but no one was there to attend. Finally I got the status on my passport application, and it was “clearance due” and I could very well predict that on that day I was not going to receive my passport. So I asked this person who to contact for. He directed me to go to the one floor above and meet one officer. I went and asked about my file and case and luckily this person was the same who called me up. He asked me why I was late; I was in no mood of arguing with him though he did not mention me who to meet when I come to office. I clarified him too about what has to be submitted. They took me to the computer to enter the new address and I was shocked to see that after submitting the same documents to the number of times there had not been any update. I finally got the address updated according to their system. AND GOT THE DELIVERY DATE for the next day. So next day again started to reach the passport office to collect the passport. Unlike 25th July I was not expecting anything because for me it would not have been any surprise if I would not receive my passport. Finally the window opened 15 minutes late; as I had to receive the passport; may be due to this reason. So my number came and the moment this person started finding my passport in the file my heartbeat was fast and abnormal finally he found my passport and asked me to sign on documents. I signed and got the Passport Finally !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I started riding to my home with a feeling as if I had cleared my board exams. The same feeling which I had 12 years ago when I had passed my first board exams. Suddenly it started raining and I could sense everything good about that, and about everything which was happening around me !! because of one simple reason that I had got my passport after putting so much efforts not loosing my hopes.

So finally I was on the Jet Airways flight no. 9W 121, flies to London from Delhi. And it was time to see the clouds outside. And they were BEAUTIFUL !!!!!!!…and I really know what this view means to me. Simply a new beginning of something good and sense of satisfaction.

Why not happy & why not exited ????

So this is something which bothers others allot when you are not exited and not happy. So now it seems you have to look happy and look exited for something for which you have always been so apprehensive that you are really not sure if you should be happy.

Saw DEV-D and it is indeed a great movie with a certain message for every loser, and the message is "just move on." Looking around I found that there are many DEV-Ds who needs some Chandramukhi more for mental satisfaction rather then physical satisfaction. But for many of those who are not exactly DEV-Ds they have to treat their socially desired partner as Chandramukhi and Paro never looks to be in picture at all. Males are emotionally very weak and females are just opposite of that. So it is this is something which is required quite strongly that they should learn to face things quite early else things becomes hell.

So if you are living life like somewhat DEV-D and not looking exited and happy then things are alarming certainly not for you but for others who either are associated with you or going to be associated with you soon. And if you are a free bird then certainly your wings going to be chopped soon.

So at the end be happy and be exited that’s the only way to survive.

Change to trap !!!!!

Sitting here and listening to few songs which I never liked to listen and watching few movies which I had never been interested to, seems some change is happening to me. Then I felt yes, some change due to family & others about whome; I feel I am least bothered but they have all one thousand reasons to be bothered about. So then I was made to realize that it is very imporatant being trapped because it happend with everyone so it is bound to happen with me as well. So there remains no question of what you want, why you want, and when you want. You will have to feel that you need this change not for you but for others. And in this process one more person whom I had never known and to me it always looked as if I never was interested to speak to not on the ground of color, sex or religion but due to interest; will be your partner for good. That's indeed quit scary for me but I have no option but to change and trapped.